Becoming

Happy Birthday Day Week Muffin.

Happy Birthday Day Week Muffin.

by

Three years ago on January 26th, very early in the morning I text my friend Elana a picture of this perfect tiny human, who just came out of my body. I captioned the perfect picture with “I had a baby for your birthday!” This year Is the first year Elana will spend her birthday not in her physical body. There…

Thirty Five and a Half-almost

Thirty Five and a Half-almost

by

In a few weeks, I will have a 16-year-old, a 9-year-old, a five-year-old and a three-year-old. My heart aches. I can feel all the muscles in my heart tense up every time I let the weight of that statement rest on my shoulders. As I dramatically deal with this closing season of my life, like any good leo would, admiring…

August is Coming.

August is Coming.

by

      The Energy in the Universe right now is insane. Have you felt it? This heavy feeling I keep trying to wipe away. I feel like Ricky Bobby from Talladega Nights when he thinks he is on fire. “HELP ME JESUS, HELP ME JEWISH GOD, HELP ME ALLAH, HELP ME TOM CRUISE, USE YOUR WITCHCRAFT ON ME TO…

Power

by

Walking outside today is like being inside a real-life storybook. I was reminded of that feeling I would get as a little girl on a perfect blue sky day. That feeling that you are just a small charcter in a story written by God. A beautiful human being walking around in this marvelous setting he created. I love these days. Spring…

You’re Pretty.

You’re Pretty.

by

I can’t understand the attack on Princesses in our modern girl raising times. I get that we want our girls to grow into strong, smart capable woman. What I don’t get is how princess became a bad word at the same time. Watching the Disney princesses evolve from Cinderella to Moana has been one of my greatest joys. It is…

Hey Kid I’ll Bring the Ice Cream.

Hey Kid I’ll Bring the Ice Cream.

by

I listen to Wayne Dyer, Rumi, Ram Das, Thich Nhat Hanh, and Anne Lamott most recently. The one thing all these teachers have drilled into my head is that you have to heal something referred to as the inner child. I get how lame that sounds. I grew up in the early nineties for god sake. The cabinets got smaller…

Fight for the Fairy Tale

Fight for the Fairy Tale

by

My house is untidy. I want to say disgusting, but I’m doing this new thing where I try really hard to not apply my perfectionist standards to everything. So the word disgusting really does not apply here.  There is no ring of soap scum on my shower, and the kitchen floor was mopped yesterday by a very handsome man with…

Learn To Stay

Learn To Stay

by

I am practicing this concept I heard on a Pema Chodran book I recently finished listening to. Learn to Stay. For about a year now I have been losing a relationship that was a major piece of my history. For months the wound is still so fresh that when I think about it I feel pulsating aches from my stomach…

Simply Become Who You Are.

Simply Become Who You Are.

by

I live in a metaphorical battle. A story happening deep on the inside of who I am fit for a science fiction novel.  A power shift is about to go down in here, and every day I  am aware of this mystical crusade going on between the last bits of what society considers normal vs the eccentric nut job who…