Day One

let it flow

Every day more and more I get to know that all these memories from the beautiful, the traumatic and even the indifferent can still come with me even if I flood this valley and stop watering the flowers in vases by the graves. 

Snowflakes are the Problem

Jae Arel

I think Snowflakes are the Problem. I remember hearing the quote about snowflakes, you know the one that says they look the same far away, but up close they are all different. This made us all want to embrace our uniqueness like the beautiful, majestc, glistening, flake of weather we are. I remember loving this […]

Turning 40

  Turning 40 was well, I would say my welcome to the fourth floor was pretty rough. Let’s be real, every flipping welcome to adulthood moment has been rough for me, because I go through everything like I am falling through a huge plate glass window in the sky. All the charts in astro and […]

Here We Go Again

here we go again

We all do Stupid things we wish we would stop doing. Cue Here We Go Again from DMX, and mount up for another cycle of oh its this problem again…. I cannot tell you how many times your girl (me) picks up the four of swords and surrender to rest and sleep cards and then […]

It is Definitely an Energy Thing.


It is Definitely an Energy Thing Did you know that just walking by someone on the sidewalk for a moment means that person  is walking through your energy field? Stretch your arms out to the side. Imagine a circle as big as your arms can span and that is in fact your energy field. Ot […]

Feeling Good

feel good

I never feel good unless I am doing something right. What a strange sentence. Right to whose standard? Feels good to whose standards? The sentence is a trap. But, it is how I feel. I love being “right” not on subjects, or opinions that turn out to be facts later. I love being right to […]

We’ve all got Ghosts

we've all got ghosts.

We’ve all got Ghosts. Ghosts linger in our energetic atmosphere, and not the kind that need salt and iron to banish. In reality all these horror characters are just our real lives crying out for a more dramatic reprise. People stay haunted by the ghosts of their trauma. Safe guarding our hearts by locking the […]

Things I’m Still in Love With

Things Im still in love with

I was thinking of the things I’m still in love with, and with me talking so much about how I am different, I  didn’t want you to think I wasn’t the same at all.  I’m still very much the same. I still love wrestling, read voraciously, move my house around every few weeks, eat too […]

What Changed Me.

what changed me

 What Changed me was when my friend Elana died. I dove off the edge of  the humanity I was living in. This whack into the reality of what living as a person really was all about so devastatingly close to my sweet little privileged life.  When Elana left her stardust body for the ether it […]

Astrology has Taught Me.

astrology taught me

Astrology has taught me so much but sometimes, being the fool for nostalgia that I am, I like to think of who I was before I started living like astrology was my first language.  This version of myself is not that far away after all- only five years ago, really.  Before this I understood very […]