Turning 40
Turning 40 was well, I would say my welcome to the fourth floor was pretty rough. Let’s be real, every flipping welcome to adulthood moment has been rough for me, because I go through everything like I am falling through a huge plate glass window in the sky. All the charts in astro and […]
Here We Go Again
We all do Stupid things we wish we would stop doing. Cue Here We Go Again from DMX, and mount up for another cycle of oh its this problem again…. I cannot tell you how many times your girl (me) picks up the four of swords and surrender to rest and sleep cards and then […]
It is Definitely an Energy Thing.
It is Definitely an Energy Thing Did you know that just walking by someone on the sidewalk for a moment means that person is walking through your energy field? Stretch your arms out to the side. Imagine a circle as big as your arms can span and that is in fact your energy field. Ot […]
Feeling Good
I never feel good unless I am doing something right. What a strange sentence. Right to whose standard? Feels good to whose standards? The sentence is a trap. But, it is how I feel. I love being “right” not on subjects, or opinions that turn out to be facts later. I love being right to […]
We’ve all got Ghosts
We’ve all got Ghosts. Ghosts linger in our energetic atmosphere, and not the kind that need salt and iron to banish. In reality all these horror characters are just our real lives crying out for a more dramatic reprise. People stay haunted by the ghosts of their trauma. Safe guarding our hearts by locking the […]
Things I’m Still in Love With
I was thinking of the things I’m still in love with, and with me talking so much about how I am different, I didn’t want you to think I wasn’t the same at all. I’m still very much the same. I still love wrestling, read voraciously, move my house around every few weeks, eat too […]
What Changed Me.
What Changed me was when my friend Elana died. I dove off the edge of the humanity I was living in. This whack into the reality of what living as a person really was all about so devastatingly close to my sweet little privileged life. When Elana left her stardust body for the ether it […]
Astrology has Taught Me.
Astrology has taught me so much but sometimes, being the fool for nostalgia that I am, I like to think of who I was before I started living like astrology was my first language. This version of myself is not that far away after all- only five years ago, really. Before this I understood very […]
Almost 41
Almost 41. My last almost was 36. Jeez. How is it only five years, yet feels like I got so much older? For me the back half of my thirties got real serious. I def think I have the wrinkles to prove it, but my kids tell me I am being ridiculous, and I don’t […]
My First Mothers Day in the Dead Mom Club
My first Mothers Day in the Dead Mom club fast approaches, and though I try to release the importance of hallmark holidays I know this one will wash over me like an ocean tide. Truth be told my Mother on Mothers day was always a risk. Her mood on every holiday Depended on her own […]