Day One

let it flow

Every day more and more I get to know that all these memories from the beautiful, the traumatic and even the indifferent can still come with me even if I flood this valley and stop watering the flowers in vases by the graves. 

Evelyn & The Paper Dolls

evelyn and the paper dolls

Maybe being, feeling, wanting -it all ebbs and flows, so I  shouldn’t want to settle on anything.  Maybe I am Just supposed to try lots of stuff on. Opinions, thoughts, feelings, and ideas, try them on and see how they feel, and I shouldn’t let any of those be set in stone, only On paper for my big art journal or for the wall!

Snowflakes are the Problem

Jae Arel

I think Snowflakes are the Problem. I remember hearing the quote about snowflakes, you know the one that says they look the same far away, but up close they are all different. This made us all want to embrace our uniqueness like the beautiful, majestc, glistening, flake of weather we are. I remember loving this […]

Real Friends

real friends

My Daughter turned 10 early this year, and I noticed her start to change the way she treated her friendships. I of course turned to television for further guidance on how to pursue the matter of explaining the coming issues she would bring to me as this change becomes fifteen instead of eleven. Knowing in […]

Turning 40

  Turning 40 was well, I would say my welcome to the fourth floor was pretty rough. Let’s be real, every flipping welcome to adulthood moment has been rough for me, because I go through everything like I am falling through a huge plate glass window in the sky. All the charts in astro and […]

Here We Go Again

here we go again

We all do Stupid things we wish we would stop doing. Cue Here We Go Again from DMX, and mount up for another cycle of oh its this problem again…. I cannot tell you how many times your girl (me) picks up the four of swords and surrender to rest and sleep cards and then […]

It is Definitely an Energy Thing.


It is Definitely an Energy Thing Did you know that just walking by someone on the sidewalk for a moment means that person  is walking through your energy field? Stretch your arms out to the side. Imagine a circle as big as your arms can span and that is in fact your energy field. Ot […]

Passion on the Cards


The theme of Passion keeps coming up in my tarot readings. Passion on the cards. Reminding me that learning to read  your  own cards comes with so many annoying things. Like having to live with concepts you cannot understand yet. Things you dont want to touch yet. Safely stacked tucked away closets of things not […]

Feeling Good

feel good

I never feel good unless I am doing something right. What a strange sentence. Right to whose standard? Feels good to whose standards? The sentence is a trap. But, it is how I feel. I love being “right” not on subjects, or opinions that turn out to be facts later. I love being right to […]

My Marriage is Pretty Special.

marriage goals

My Marriage is pretty special. It always was something special, but before I lived Astrology I would get so mad at my husband for things that he still does, but look totally normal under the lens of  his birth chart placements. After Astrology I was like oh shit.-Im doing this wrong, but so right for […]