Sasha Banks

Sasha Banks

I have loved professional wrestling for as long as I can remember. Since the days of Saturday programming where I dreamed of being like Sunny, but with the capability to kick someone’s ass for real. My first heartbreak came at the hands of Hulk Hogan, long before he made the most awkward sex tape ever, and got himself banned from…

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As a thirty-five-year-old woman striving to live with the integrity of a disney princess, I can no longer look around and wait for the adult in the room to step forward when someone is looking for them.I am supposed to be an adult. I have to actually adult. For someone who takes on responsibility like a martyr in a zombie…

August is Coming.

August is Coming.

      The Energy in the Universe right now is insane. Have you felt it? This heavy feeling I keep trying to wipe away. I feel like Ricky Bobby from Talladega Nights when he thinks he is on fire. “HELP ME JESUS, HELP ME JEWISH GOD, HELP ME ALLAH, HELP ME TOM CRUISE, USE YOUR WITCHCRAFT ON ME TO…

Your Heart is Three Dimensional and Other A-ha Moments.

Your Heart is Three Dimensional and Other A-ha Moments.

Remnants of motherhood are scattered around my cream “Debbie Does Dallas” leather sofa. Don’t judge me too harshly, it was the floor model and more than half the price of the chocolate one I wanted. A Biddy Baby American girl doll named Rachel, whose black painted on hair is scratched and worn with the love I hoped for her as…

Winter

Winter

I took a season off from blogging , because I was waiting for what my new normal would bring, and I’m not into expressing my melancholy and struggles in such an open forum. My growth never comes from expelling all that raw, fiery emotion to anyone but my physical journal. Winter is here, and after a contemplative and productive Fall I feel stable…

Fight for the Fairy Tale

Fight for the Fairy Tale

My house is untidy. I want to say disgusting, but I’m doing this new thing where I try really hard to not apply my perfectionist standards to everything. So the word disgusting really does not apply here.  There is no ring of soap scum on my shower, and the kitchen floor was mopped yesterday by a very handsome man with…

Learn To Stay

Learn To Stay

I am practicing this concept I heard on a Pema Chodran book I recently finished listening to. Learn to Stay. For about a year now I have been losing a relationship that was a major piece of my history. For months the wound is still so fresh that when I think about it I feel pulsating aches from my stomach…

Simply Become Who You Are.

Simply Become Who You Are.

I live in a metaphorical battle. A story happening deep on the inside of who I am fit for a science fiction novel.  A power shift is about to go down in here, and every day I  am aware of this mystical crusade going on between the last bits of what society considers normal vs the eccentric nut job who…

Parenting, the Days are Long the Years are Short.

Parenting, the Days are Long the Years are Short.

I  sit in the middle of perfect chaos and beg to tuck all of it away in my mind. Nestle  it quickly into the crevices of my soul so I will never forget. I never want to forget these days of following after a toddler monster through the halls of the children’s museum. Breathless, and nervous that he will crash…

Be F**king Kind to Each Other

Be F**king Kind to Each Other

**This post is in no way meant to victim blame. Rape is never the victims fault. This post is simply meant to be awareness that as a society we are not doing enough in the prevention column. Before I reached my thirteenth birthday there were a few things I knew about going to parties from my Parents. Dad: “Never take…