I love astrology, but she never ceases to amaze me with her cruelty. I guess the real issue is how I cling to my ideas of wanting to know how everything should go and what it will look like when it gets here, I mean why else did I start learning to read tarot if it was not to see a bit into the future?
The problem is when you master that part, well you can read the vibe and check into the future, and it always has this reoccurring cycle of grim, dire, sad, and disappointing. Also, that is the lucky part.
The cosmos have taught me that living is all we can do. They will come like any other weather pattern to disturb our plans and ideas. I only look to the Astrology to show me the traps and what particular thing I should be prepared for. If it was going to be a blizzard you would want to know.
Well it is kind of like a storm out there, but this one is reved up with an emotional intensity that could turn to a real problem with self hate.
lets blame it on the moon for today, but the problem is much deeper in the chart than the waxing and waning of the moon.
You should be alreted to things you no longer like.
You might have loved even.
You just do not anymore.
Something turned you off.
Something made you see that in a new way, and you cannot unsee it.
This has made you sad.
Of course it has, because things that you once loved, that you do not anymore when you leave them it is sad. You burrow a part of it inside of yourself and move on to a new love, and that one too will wax and wane like the moon, if you are lucky enough to keep evolving through your lifetime in your meat suit body.
The cosmos have often fluttered disappointment in my face and called it whats good for me.
Many a time I have pounded at my deck for myself or for others and asked for a different outcome. To gain what we ask we must lose so much, and yet she calls to us from a deep raging fire of self sabotage.
To avoid the triggers you have to first get really right with yourself, but this time in the astrology wants someone to blame, and she will find one if she is allowed the time to let her resentment reign. The true test is in seeing how it is you, and not them, and by knowing that you will then know you can only be responsible for how you deal with that.
It should feel off now. It should feel like even if it is so exciting it just feels suspect.
You should be letting go of the things the universe directs you to let go of.
The heat is building into Thursday 10/16 as that moon peaks on it’s down tour of leo. Leo here makes it interesting, and by interseting I mean dramatic. The feelings, the pressure, the adoration or lack there of is amplified in the feelings in a time that already asks for deep dedication and patience in the long term goals we have been praying for.
This is not the time to cry over spilled milk, but you will want too. The desire to rage, protest, and have a tantrum are a buzz, but they will do little but make your life miserable, and your body tired.
It is supposed to sting now. That is where the magic is silly.
The rest of the month really is that you think you know how it will go, but the universe has other ideas kind of vibes. Surprised for better or worse are likely to pop out of a dark corner.
If you do not harness the energy for dramatic shows of attention, and justice you will see the way thorugh is with those small every day things, and you will get there slow and steady with a dedicated committed methodical pace while learning to lean into letting go of things like how other people act and other things out of your control.
People are not problems to be fixed. They are to love or to leave, and that has little to do with what you think they should be doing. You have to treat people in a way you want to be treated and focus on that, not on how this person acting this way is ruining your life.
You can have a strong optimism deep down, and eternal knowing that it will work out if you stay checking your boxes and doing what your heart knows is the right thing to do, but how it looks to the others is gonna be an issue by the 19th and it will lead into a paranoia that could really send someone over the edge by the 20th.
You mght find out someone has been spreading rumors about you, and how confrontation and back and forths only lead to the universe sending you more of the same old drama rama people over and over because you cant help but indulge in the I NEEEEEEEDDDDDD to say this.
By the end of the month if you are really mad it is not going a certain way you will be super unhappy. The Virgo traps of perfection are real, and they are everywhere waiting to take you down a chute to restart the game you are so close to getting out of.
Use the time for dedication.
Be a good person and treat people how you want them to treat you even on the way out. Even when you do not love them anymore. Even when you cannot love them anymore.
It is time to go, but the past she calls back like she always does to things that should have been, but never could be.
stay in your feelings without letting them run a muck on your life. If it hurts let it hurt. Dig there, not at the other person. Trust me it is not them. It is alway only you baby. Cher told us this you know? Sooner or later we all sleep alone. Alone is the medicine. We are to co-dependant and then call that love and then end up here over and over again.
Teach your kids something new about love, like we dont just have to take what is handed we can ask for the best.
Trust me when I say I know it is hard.
But, you’ve got this. You’re pretty, and it is all ends, and thats the saddest part.
If you have been running. You will find there is no place to hide in this kind of Astrology. Everything done in the dark will come to the light so just make yourself proud. Keep letting go. Keep reminding yourself that the best loves of your life are still yet to come, and that has no age limit.
Take more naps. Less telling everyone about your business. More hobbies less gossip. More reality, less escapism. More I will get there less I am never going to make it.
We have time dear. You have to trust that or it is going to suck out here. Also do not try to work it out with what they want to take this round. Like holding onto blood in shark infested waters. The times want to know if you learned how to put your oxygen on before helping everyone else? They want to know you’re doing it for something other than the show and the money. The Universe wants you to show up being your real authentic self, not who you package up and pretend to be on social media.
It is scary out here if you’re not ready to lose whatever it is you have, but life she takes what she wants, and she waits for you to weave it into a story.
Less going into the past to sort it out also. Things are gone, even though the ghosts linger. What we are looking for is not behind us, its just what we thought was good enough before we knew any better, and that is tragic and beautiful
Good Luck and have some fun out here in between all that hard work of learning to reprogram your nervous system, give up generational curses, and societal norms.
Until next time my Darlings.
XOXOX
