I wonder if the hardest part of leaving things behind is in the letting go?
In what that means for the memories.
If we let them go is the love gone too?
I don’t think so, but I wonder.
What if we have to let go of the past, or we will fall victim to the horrible widns of fate, that even on a good day will start to feel like a burden?
I wonder if it never comes back, never mends- Then it never was.
I wonder how to let it go and hold the reverence.
I want to shout from the roof tops that the love was real
The burn to let i go exists
And it wasn’t easy, but it was always necessary.
I wonder what that makes me
What it takes away.
To move on and accept where the pieces have landed seems impossible, and yet the cosmos ask it again and again.
To be alive is to exist.
To exist is to spend time.
To have a life is to bunch the memories together that you are always marching to get in front of.
One day all our memories are us just looking back as our own time is up.
If that is all that matters I wonder how to live a life.
How to say i loved what it was, and I am so sad to not get to live in that version of the story.
To head on the road without what you thought would come with you and know that’s the best way through is a rough task.
I wonder if everyone I had to cut off knows I would have done it near them if I could have.
I wonder if they know that no matter how much time marches on what was will always be mine, but that doesn’t mean doing the same things, doing it again, or checking in to see if the water of the past has cooled down.
We are asked to move on now, and learn to do that without letting go of what was always the most important part of the equation.
Yourself.
That was always the magic and the things that left were always in the way of getting there to the root.
The times will ask you how much do you need to lose to meet yourself raw, real, and unfiltered?
It is the hardest for me to put the old away, like it didn’t make me, like it isn’t coursing through my blood, but i follow Astrology, and I know the way, and it is through the total you.
